********* Stream of Consciousness Day ************
Ok, here goes – introducing the “me” version of my venture into blog challenges!! It’s hard for me to avoid a final edit, but it is here: raw me -scary!! Most of my mornings usually start with me attempting to get it together: either recovering from; planning around; or cautiously/gratefully wondering how I ended up so blessed so as not to have a headache (or some other migraine-related symptom). So, I guess this is my attempt to critique my writing below with a mild,opening disclaimer (of boring repetition – be careful)!! Read at your own risk…
This morning I looked in the mirror…
and thought about how old I look. I always do this, the same as I always get up, go to the bathroom to get dressed, then proceed to feed my animals (3 house kitties and a house-doggy). They are my friends – I don’t mind getting up in the morning to feed them – they are also my socialites!
After I decide that I do look old, my mind immediately goes to, “So what, all that matters is what you feel like; everybody gets old – these are like battle scars and you have a right to have them, and you can work around this”. I think my brain does this as an automatic acceptance – although I had to work on getting over the age thing for at first, eventually, it became automatic – my subconscious just takes over and the feelings of “it” being OK (old age looking as a trade off for just being happy & well) emerge on their own.
After these thoughts, I start to think about how my head – and the rest of me – will feel today. This is also a daily ritual. I had in my mind what I wanted to do – which I immediately did after feeding my buddies. I then had toast (I start out with a “quickie” snack before breakfast – I like to start with a fizzy pop and a cookie or snack before breakfast – I know, but you wanted to know this stuff – horrible grammer, huh?) and started to simultaneously think about what I would be writing, plus wondering if my headache was going to get to the level of being treated or not. I’ve had a lot of migraines lately but I have made it 3 or 4 days. I was the sickest I’ve been in a while on Easter Sunday – having a severe migraine all day and into the next night. I took three triptans, but no relief. If I wait too long, this is what happens. I had another one Monday, but I’ve actually made it since then without taking a triptan – a big deal when I’ve previously been “on a roll”. I can go almost a month straight, having a headache almost every day, but then the migraines will finally break (almost surely due to hormones), and I may go three weeks with no discernable migraine (I don’t count it as a headache day unless I have to take a triptan) and no need to take any other med – heaven! I always think those days will last forever… 15 minutes – time’s up!!
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