“Letter to Self: You Are Beautiful” NMAMBC #13

Migraine Awareness Month #13: “You Are Beautiful”

“Write yourself a love letter. Tell yourself how wonderful you are. Remind yourself of the things you’ve accomplished despite Migraine. There are times we need to be reminded of the good things about ourselves that others see that we may have missed.”

Dear Self,

I want you to know exactly what I think of you and how much you are loved. No, I don’t think of you the way that you sometimes think of you… I can see so clearly all the things I’m proud of and all the things you so need to be proud of, too. Please just wait – I want you to really look at and think about this list I’ve made for you; it will change your mind, I promise.

What makes you WONDERFUL:

• You know how you always make us laugh? Well, I’m here to tell ‘ya – you are funny and you never fail to brighten my day. We were all talking the other day about how you will do just about anything (I know – within reason!!) to get us going – we LOVE it!
• How you care about EVERY little thing! I’ve seen you take bugs outside instead of smashing them, and I also know you frequently get out of your car on a busy road to save a turtle. Do you think just anyone does this? No, they don’t and you should be proud of your compassion. I know I am.
• This one is almost a sub-category of the one above, but I’ll be listing it separately. I’ve noticed that you have a “worldliness” about you when it comes to getting out the truth if you think it will help someone. No, it’s not a rare “wonderful” to have, but taken to your level, not just anyone happens to be “endowed” with so much goodwill. Keep it up: it will take you far (I mean it!).
• Your “realness” inspires me! I know you have a hard time expressing yourself when you feel insecure and I know all about the moving all over the country and the “other stuff” too… but we all can’t be perfect now, can we? Don’t you worry about those things that you can’t change… I’m talking about the “Real You” that IS in there – she is silly, smart, eclectic, loving, tough, sweet and strong. How many others can boast about having such a balanced attitude towards everything. I know your mostly a dreamer, but your analytical side is business and smart enough to carry you through anything and don’t you forget it!!

And now – I want you to know how proud I am of what you’ve accomplished (even though your migraines are so often now):

• You went back to college! Isn’t that enough in itself!! I know – you wanted to finish as a Paramedic or Surg Tech, but remember what Jane said? She said that you proved it to yourself that you COULD do it – and you know what? YOU DID! You finished that EMT-B certificate and loved the learning in the process – who could ask for more. When you get better (or when those hormones straighten themselves out and act like responsible citizens again…), you can go back – you and I both know that. You will SHINE!
• And what about your house? Yeah, it’s a small one, but in those woods just like you wanted. It was a bear to get it – fighting with that finance guy every – I mean, EVERY – step of the way, but you persevered anyway and live in an area you could only dream of before. You know what the next step is, right? That dream home you wrote about – it’s in “the works” and will be your next accomplishment, migraine or no-migraine. Nothing will stand in your way; it didn’t before and it won’t again. That “stubborness” you were so embarrassed by as a kid? It is your “drive” now – your life force – and it will carry you through anything.
• Finally (and you know where I’m going with this one…), I want to talk about your writing. I believe it to be the “new” and improved version of what you wanted to accomplish in becoming a Paramedic. You are getting better & better (I’m sorry, but I can’t say the same thing about your technical skills – sorry, the truth), and your writing will save people – just in a little less “physical” way than being a Paramedic would have. (Less back pain, too! LOL). Becoming a writer is what you’ve wanted for years – (remember how we talked and dreamed about this? Remember all those books you read about writing?) Well, it WAS for a reason… and that reason is just ahead of you. Never forget that…

“National Migraine Awareness Month is initiated by the National Headache Foundation. The Blogger’s Challenge is initiated by www.FightingHeadacheDisorders.com “