Migraine Awareness Month #27: “In My Head and Heart”
“Who inspires you to keep trying and not give up, despite your Migraines?”
I feel like I should say something like, “My family keeps me from giving up”; “All those other Migraineurs keep me from giving up”; “I can’t let the world down, so I never give up” and so on. All of these are true: I really can’t give up because of my daughters, husband and other family members and friends. Also, I don’t want to let the world down when I obviously have information about this cruel disease that I could get out there to share with the world. So, these reasons are strong, real and very, very valid – no doubt.
But there are other reasons that are actually stronger than my commitment to my family, other Migraineurs and the world. They are: my strong desire to live; fear of not continuing to fight; stubborn nature; and childlike, optimistic hope that everything in this world is just too beautiful to give up on… or leave.
Now that last one would be hard to believe for the few who’ve seen me at my most wet-blanket worst. I can be the most depressed negative soul on this earth when I’m afraid, ready to give up and mad at this so-beautiful world. Everything is bad/wrong/horrible/flawed during these “down days” (ha ha – down days?! Really…), and I’m never a stranger to negativity during these moments, days, weeks while I’m temporarily “giving up”.
This “badness” does go away – I do heal – and my giving, loving, incredibly positive side always reemerges… from somewhere far, far away. My head and my heart always kick in, never letting me down. How could they? I wouldn’t let them…
“National Migraine Awareness Month is initiated by the National Headache Foundation. The Blogger’s Challenge is initiated by www.FightingHeadacheDisorders.com “