I write about my health because…
v What does someone who has a chronic, life-altering, or terminal condition(s) do when they haven’t found suitable, tolerable, or sustainable treatment by the doctors who’ve been assigned to help them?
v What does a suffering person (with a chronic, life-altering, or terminal condition(s) do) if they want to reach out to others as well as themselves in their attempt to ease the condition(s) and restore a reasonable quality of life?
v What does this person do when he/she doesn’t necessarily agree with standard treatment, standard beliefs and standard opinions; what happens when these “treatments” fail to bring relief?
v What if this ill person has other loves, beliefs and dreams in spite of their “tarnished” life; how can this person, restricted in many ways by their illness, express these beliefs; show his/her love/appreciation; and live his/her dreams?
v Finally, how can a suffering, lonely and bound individual reach out to the world, break those bounds, assist other sufferers, and change humanity in the process?
All these thoughts and more came to me in this prompt. I want to change my world and allow others to do the same for me; I want to change others’ worlds for the better, and I hope they can change mine, too; and I want ALL these changes to reverberate from one round “corner” of this planet to the next. These are my passions (and yes, I still have them, even in the midst of my pain, hopeless despair and negative moments):
- I have a need to KNOW what’s wrong with me. This is not an ego-trip designed to delight or p-off the medical community (this goes out to all the docs that generally don’t like me – oh, well…); this is my sometimes desperate, sometimes probing attempt at getting answers, getting to the REAL truth, and finding relief in a sometimes flawed system than can be negative, expensive and corrupt.
- I truly don’t want others to suffer (unless, of course, they’ve never had an actual migraine – in the midst of the misunderstanding, I’ll admit I’ve had my moments – sorry), and I have my “moments of supreme humanity”, when I want – need – require the world to know. This is true power and the answer to making this world a better place.
- Sorry for this analogy (I know you’ve heard this one somewhere else before – hmmm…): but I have an inquiring mind… I want to know the truth; I want to expose the truth; and I’m not satisfied until everyone has at least heard it. I can’t be sure what any one person, culture or group does with the info; all I can do is hope that it has made an impression, and that they will at least consider it.
- I love words! You might say, “Yeah, but what do simple, little words have to do with health, lack-of-health, suffering, and helping the world/humanity?” Well, here’s my answer: Because this is my take, my art, and my way of contributing. Words get the Truth out – the HELP out – and the KINDNESS out. Wonderful, beautiful, inspiring, and sometimes honestly brutal WORDS are my tools…
… And information is my gift to the world…